failing maths test AGAIN!
i just hate it..i really don't know why i failed.
first time in my life.
the last monday i run 2.4km..my asthma
came back while running. at the time,
my heart was very pain, i was feeling
so cold as if i on the air-con.
oh my gosh.
i hope that i will be fine these few days(:
I like me with you.
7:04 PM
29th of april
wah..i am tired man.
writing details for home econs cause my
computer can't print.
my hands are like aching.
i hope my efforts will not go to waste.
i am really very tired.
today slept at one am.
only got about five hours of sleeping.
i am sleepy now.
my eyes are going to close.
for the sake to get good result for CA,
i will push myself further more!
jia you! three cheers!
i cannot eat this week
cause my auser will pain,
only can drink.
i will loss a lot of weight!
hahah.
I like me with you.
6:27 PM
well..
today 2.4km run was great for me!
hahah. i think i get gold..hopefully(:
and i was quite angry during home econs.
i should be angry..i don't know whether i am now.
hahah. anyway..just now saw brother and lawrence
at yoshi.
okay..got to study hard for CA..JIA YOU!
hahah. i got to go.
burbye.
I like me with you.
5:57 PM
26th of april
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL!
hahah. you are finally forthteen.
congragulations man.
anyway..take care if yourself,
seeing you with headaches is bad):
get well soon(:
okay..today no piano lesson!
should i be sad or happy.
i like studying maths today.
it was nice(:
I LOVE MATHS!
today i like so..
i don't how to say.
i didn't breakfast and lunch,
study untill like that don't have time to eat arh?
hahah no lah. its because i don't have
appetite to eat.
found out that a lot of people's blog
song is nice(:
i got a lollipop from DA JIE JIE.
there is a small paper writing there,
YOU CAN DO IT!(:
hahah,thank you.
aiyo..my stomach is hurting now):
wah..is like the whole day.
anyway..going to buy dinner with kor kor soon.
i am like waiting for him to wake up.
i can say that I STILL LOVE HIM!
hahah..i don't know why..but the person still
doesn't change. my love for him is deep(:
okay, got to go..
burbye.
Laimin<33
I like me with you.
6:12 PM
i don't know why should i care.
i seem to be the only one that cared.
stop pushing the blame on me.
yes, i believe something have happened.
but must it always have to be my fault?
well..if blaming me will make you feel better,
then go ahead, i won't stop you.
just stop, please for goodness sake!
this is not a game.
i am a human being!
treat me like one!
oh pls, i am not a toy to throw when you feel like it!
whatever i say..you think i lied.
but i really didn't.
can't you believe me?
i guess i really don't mean anything to you.
I like me with you.
9:00 PM
25th of april
well..today was a tiring day indeed.
morning first lesson got chinese..then LA.
then home econ.
then got the bazzar thing lor,
i am feeling quite restless now.
I HATE MRS RUTH WONG!
what makes you think you can do better than us.
you lost the poster..
and i guess my group need to redo the
whole thing right? you are a *good* teacher.
you always expect so much from us.
you keep giving comments,
you think so easy..you try lah.
i was thinking about a lot of things that happen.
was unhappy, sad,angry.
i was like banging on the piano so hard,
playing so fast that i am sweating,
my third and forth finger's skin is like peeling off.
i seriously don't know what happen.
it seems that i am the only one that cared.
well..how does it feels when you got betrayed?
i shouldn't have trust you, i regretted.
what's the point when you are trying to gain my
trust and....
you know what you have done.
and you.
i am utterly disappointed in you.
to think of your actions?
you didn't spared a thought for me.
i was too good.
i was trying to help but i was hurt in the end.
this is not the results i want!
i want to help and not get hurt at the same time.
can you understand how i feel?
thinking..
i was so stupid.
i shouldn't have wasted my energy thinking about this.
its of no use.
why don't live happily(:
to hazel:
sorry i didn't buy you birthday presents.
but i will give you on monday.
and enjoy yourself on your birthday.
sorry.
I like me with you.
6:29 PM
19th of april
study chapter one for maths..
so guai right?
hahah.
my stomach and my both hans are hurting.
i am worried.
my back..
something is wrong.
that time sit and reach was like i heard a crack
sound on my back.
its only 28 cm.
bad,real bad.
this time round.
my standing broad jump, in-cline pull up and sit up
got improve..the rest all deprove.
got to study hard for common test.
i don't want to disappoint myself.
i want to get good results.
having stomachache this few days.
not really feeling very good.
if you want to blame me, so be it.
do you think i even care about it?
go on..go on..
if you think what you are doing really benfit
you so much, hurting me is fun..
i will not stop you, cause its no use me
saying this things..its pointless.
everything is getting from bad to worse.
i can't imagine a choir without the three SL..
i can't imagine me crying infront of you..
i was quite postive in the morning,
thinking now, i really asked too much from you.
i am sorry. i won't bother you anymore.
have i really asked too much from you?
I like me with you.
8:26 PM
18th of april
wow. PFT was like so..
had choir and lunched with the usuals.
farah,wen jing and charmaine made a speech each.
well..it was touching. and hazel said my eyes were red..
and my vision blurred.
and they gave us sweets.
i believe that it is the nicest sweet on earth.
after choir end..i could no longer hold back my tears and
i cried. at least i felt better after crying.
when i am NTUC today,i told myself to be mentally prepared.
but still..i cried.
today wasn't really a good mood huh.
i just hate it when it comes to farewell..
primary metamorphsis night also cry.
can't this kind of things not happen again?
i am very sorry.
i am not in a good mood today.
you guys might think that *like that also need to cry*
cause you don't undertstand how i feel.
to suen:
daughter, as expected.
daddylim didn't agree to buy sweets for me.
to the three SL:
i will miss you all and thanks for the sweets.
thats very nice for your.
WHY? WHY? WHY?
why must have that blog song.
i just hate it..
I like me with you.
7:12 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONSTIIE!
okay was a nice day for me(:
tmr there is PFT..
i am scared that i would fail):
give me courage!
giuve me strength!
cheer for me!
hahah..i think i am crazy!
to lawrence:
i got one favour from you..
will tell you when you log in msn(:
to constiie:
replied your letter and will buy you a present soon!
I like me with you.
7:16 PM
17th of april
okay..as promised to hazel,
i will blog out the pictures(:
dahlia's braited hair.
my braited hair.
me,yvonne,hazel,doreen and sherilyn(:
me and doreen(:
jeslyn,doreen, me and yvonne.
me and beckky(:
doreen nd yvonne(:
me and doreen again(:
me and dahlia.
hazel braited hair.
me and doreen again!
four of us(:
my wonderful sisters(:
me and hazel(:
me and yvonne(:
I like me with you.
3:01 PM
15th of april
this few days was a bad day for me.
i was hot-tempered,angry.
i even scolded my friends..i am sorry.
i don't kno why on earth did it happen to
SEOW LAI MIN!
something is wrong..very wrong.
today during lunch time..i don't know why i was
angry..so i just scolded yvonne.
like su en said..i like scold her for no reason,
ill-disciplined. well..what she said was true.
to yvonne:
i am sorry,san jie.
i shouldn't have shout at you.
i really don't know what happen.
although i was having bad mood..but still i shouldn't
have take it out on you.
to black guy:
firstly..don't expect me to say sorry for shouting at you.
because if you never say that sentence..you can excuse
yourself from being scolded..
but that's the problem..you want to be scolded right?
you this kind of people like nothing to do like that.
to beckky:
are you okay?
you seem sad man..tell me if you have any problem.
i will always be there for you.
last year(half of it) was like shit.
DL problem, friendship problem.
i don't like last year!
this year is better i think.
at least one of them is gone.
i better buck up now..i have not started studying yet.
oh gosh..i am like slacking all day long.
and my stomach, my legs and arms started aching
today):
oh please..
i have a name! SEOW LAI MIN!
don't say i am zi hao's sister, its irritating!
to hazel:
i am sorry..i should have understand you.
knowing you got problems and i did nothing.
i am sorry.
i really don't know what had happen to me.
the world is changing.
if i have offended anyone..i am sorry.
this is my life not yours!
you may have screwed up my past..
but i will make sure that my present will be different.
joy is a thing that does not last forever.
cherish it if you still can,
or you will regret it.
I like me with you.
8:21 PM
after reading the two blogs, was quite sad and angry.
for i don't know what reason??
i can understand how he feels.
GOSH. he seems so sad and sick(physically)
but..there is nothing i can do.
you BICTH! STOP!
you are making him feeling so miserable.
you think very fun isit?
you are loved..so cherish it.
or you will regret.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND??
I like me with you.
8:45 PM
12th of april
yesterday was founder's day.
it was fun and enjoyable(:
this are the people that help me:
wen jing-help me brait my hair
yvonne-make up
jeslyn-make up
to hazel:
i wrote letters to you two times, and you replied me none.
actually..if you think that its so boring.
you don't have to reply.
today was a sucky day i should say.
morning rain..
electricity trip..i go make..trip again.
damn pissed. everytime thundering also like that.
my piano sooner or later will spoil.
then late for piano lessons..scolding.
well, few days ago..i was emo-ing.
sad that friends betray me..their actions.
i can't imagine that they are so bad.
nobody will undertstand how it feels like untill
they themselves experience it.
how many times must i say?
i don't like people apologising to me!
you don't undertstand isit?
must you piss me off?
i really hope that i can take away your pain.
seeing you sad doesn't make me happy):
well..there is nothing i can do..right?
i feel so useless.
to YOU:
stop sighing when you see me during piano lessons.
i know you more pro then me. i got nothing to say.
but do you did to show off?
you think you upper sec..more talent i scared arh?
you are wrong man.
why? got boyfriend big arh? think he can cover up for you?
don't be coward. your attitude really sucks.
well..that speaks of your chracter.
you don't want to change it..i got nothing to say.
someone AGAIN hacked into my account.
the song is gone.. well..
I DON'T CARE!
I DONT GIVE A DAMN.
to the person that hacked into my account:
this is the forth time.
first two time is my email.
the last two is my blog.
who the hell are you?
if you there to do something..admit it.
don't be a coward and a loser.
I like me with you.
5:56 PM
7th of april
today was tired.
had 2.4km run in the morning..
maths then science.
was quite emo during the science lesson.
thinking about something.
but..the most important thing is
I AM FREE!!
whoohoo!
finally free from everything(:
you seems sad.
are you okay?
today i saw your face..it was red..
i bet that your cried,
you comfirm tell me you flu.
i would not believe.
did i really scared you?
anyway..there is choir practice tomorrow.
i hope that there will be joy everyday for me(:
three cheers!
i don't know.
maybe the ________ means more to you rather than me.
i don't care. its none of my business.
whatever it is.
Laimin<33
I like me with you.
4:43 PM
well..
i just did something that was so WOW.
i couldn't believe it.
since you wanted to know, i might as well tell you.
but the lover i post about is not you.
so..yeah.
i confessed to him just now.
no reaction. as expected.
he was shock..
anyway..i feel carefree now,
no need to worry about anything anymore.
I AM FREE!
I like me with you.
9:37 PM
5th of april
this few days was sucky..
was quite moody yesterday and thurseday):
i was crying in the night at the corner of my bedroom.
my grandma is biased to my brother all the time.
my parents pretends that they hear anything,
when i tell him that he bullies me. he even
expect me to give in. can't the just be fair?
the words they said have really broken my
heart.
i don't expect much from them, i just want them
to be fair. all the good things i have done have
exchanged with a word 'sorry'
how many times must i tell you.
don't apologise to me!
i hate you apologising to me!
every word of 'sorry' just adds to my guilt.
everything seems wrong.
people are emo..they are wierd people.
to lover:
liking each other but not being able to be together
is a torture.
i hope that your will be together.
i sincerely wish the best to two of you.
slowly as time passes..i will forget him sooner or later.
i believer that time will heal the pain(:
well, i am not loved.
i am not fit to be loved.
i am a goner..just leave me alone.
by that time, i will be heartless.
i won't love anyone,including myself.
i have no dreams..no nothing.
i just hope that time can heal my pain.
maybe to you all, i don't mean a single thing.
it was really a bad day.
I like me with you.
10:26 AM
2th of april
okay.. i was fooled by a lot of people!
hahah.
hazel is sad..cause of the kao pei teacher.
also not your choice right..
is the student choice mah..its none of your business!
you ass-holes!
to hazel:
okay..don't think about it anymore..
don't cry, its hurts to see you cry.
smiles always!
i love to see purple panter to smile(:
cause she will look super cute(:
i just can't take my eyes off you.
Laimin<33
I like me with you.
10:40 AM