Me&you(:

two more days to syf.
that's really kind of scary.
peijia is having fever and sophie is sick.
like omg lah, suddenly a lot of poeple sick.

i bet that monday i am going to cry.
why will i cry? because i am scared.
i can't overcome the fears in me.

two more days people, hang in there.
don't let your efforts go to drain.
your can do it!!
jia you(:

I like me with you.

7:02 PM

my mummy damn random,
suddenly see the choir schedule on the table then scold me again.
you think i want to go home so late isit?
do i like have a choice to chose?
i told you that i wanted me table to be in my room,
so when your watch tv and stuff, i can concentrate,
then you go say what superstitious things...as usual.
it's bull shit.

brother, i know you look down on me because i take combined science.
but do you have to emphazise on the word combined?
is taking combined science shamfeful?
you are just too full of yourself.
you keep saying that i will fail every subject.
i am already trying very hard to cope
with choir, school work, studytime,piano.
do you know that i am freaking stressed up now?

mummy, i said i didn't want to have chinese tuition.
the reason is not because i am lazy,
it's because i need to find time to study.
do i have time to study? no.
do i have enough time to sleep? no.
do i have time to play piano? no.
do i have time to rest? no.
no no no no! not at all!
i am really very disappointed with you.
i am really very stressed up.
you don't even understand me,
then how the fuck can we communicate?
everytime we talk, we quarrel.

you don't understand how i feel, you don't understand me.
you only care about your beloved son.
when it comes to credit, it always belong to him,
te credit, praise, care and concern never belongs to me.
when it comes to fault, it always my fault.
why? why? why? why isit me and not him.
why?

i am not angry that i am always blamed,
i am not angry that you are bais to brother,
but just dissapointed that you would treat me like that.

brother's birthday is forever so 'celebrated'
my birthday..do they even rmb??

dahlia, a thank you for being my listening ear everytime.
i shouldn't even have talk to him...
i am just creating one more trouble for myself, and letting myself
get hurt again.
why? why can't i just shut my mouth and ignore him?
sooner or later, history is going to repeat itself.
sooner or later, i will cry again.

i can only watch things happen infront of me,
there is nothing i can do. it was meant to be.
i just feel so useless.

I like me with you.

10:39 PM

today i spent my day with dahlia, my god-sister.
hahah. went to lucky plaza and then to far east plaza.
damn fun can! :D
i bought 2 rings(:
she bought 2 rings and 3 pairs for earrings.
we saw a lot of nice clothes!!!
nice time go buy!

the day wouldn't be meaningful without you today.
thank you dahlia!(:
go out again!!

I like me with you.

9:03 PM

hello people(:
11 more days to choir syf.
jia you, don't give up(:

my a-maths and ss test today gone case alrdy.
i still got e-maths test. paper is easy(:
congragulations to my class girls for getting 3rd in soccer inter-class!
hahah. well done(:

today's upp sec assembly is very nice.
it's about this guy called joel...
he has no ears, no hands, no toes,
he didn't blamed the guy that landed him in this state.
instead, in this 19 years, he lived happily.
he didn't give up.
he forgave that person.
it's seriously very touching story.

you have totally changed to another person.
you are no longer the person i know...
sometimes i really regret saying things,
i wish i coud take the words back.
i know i can't.
there is nothing i can do.

and as for you, i don't need your fking care,
you can go to your....
i don't believe i can't survive without you.
i don't believe....

I like me with you.

12:10 AM

hello people.
i am feeling much better now.
a really thank you to you guys for encouraging me.
i will be strong.

dahlia:
really thank you for being there for me.
staying back with me untill late,
being my listening ear, encouraging me.
you are my best sister(:

hazel:
really thank you for your letters.
its really did cheered me up.
yes, we are all in this tgt(:

i don't know why.
the moment you are with me,
i just felt that the same thing is going to happen again.
i tried to forget but i can't.

i ignored you because i am afraid that the same thing will happen again.
the most importantly, i am afraid that i will get hurt again.

3 love get in first for soccer interclass(:
yay. hooray.
well done(:

I like me with you.

1:44 PM