Me&you(:

i am really angry with you.
for copying what i did actually.
everything copy copy copy.
can you have some sense of
originality?

don't think i don't know.
any yea, the bad things you do..
i all know.
your face shows that you are guilty.
you think i can be easilly bullied
after all those tihngs that have happen.

I like me with you.

9:16 PM

i miss TELEPORT PARTNER!
hahah. just being random.
okay..i just hate you..

I like me with you.

5:41 PM

hahah. i at the library with the choir girls.
the captain's ball was fun although we lost.
but yeah. it's just a game(:

I like me with you.

1:49 PM

29th of May
hey people.
there is captain's ball tmr.
omg! i am so nervous.
scared nevr record marks, never
give instuctions..all this.
hope that everything's going be great(:

okay. today morning i was so moody?
the first thing i do,
i put my bag in the choir room and i went to
toilet to wash my face..TO WAKE MYSELF UP!

i heard that my father's flight was delayed..
first time hear this type of news, i was quite
worried.
next, there is idiot guy that keep on
messaging me, pestering me.
he didn't know how pissed and irritated i was.

yesterday i actually switched off my hp.
cause i was irritated.
i mean like it's sort of irritating when i don't
reply his msg, and will continue replying me
by u there? untill i reply.
that's dumb.

we are not that close okay?
to me, i treat you as a brother..telling me
you interested in me rather than two of them?
really scared me off...
and is like know you from friendster one..
got a bit dangerous leh.

hazel like today so sick.
sneezing, coughing all those stuff,
comfirm i spread one lor..
i am sorry man, your had to suffer with me):

do you know how irritated i was by you?
you really pissed me off.

I like me with you.

4:33 PM

27th of may
today was fun(:
more fun!
hahah. (REWIND)

morning went to meet hazel,doreen
and yvonne at mac before go choir.
then after choir went to funeral wake.
that is sad man.

went to eat at yoshi and amazingly,
i found JENSON!
omg! you JJ..grown untill so tall,
last time i was taller than you,
now you taller than me.
okay, anyway take cares bah(:

next to NTUC!
yea to buy prize..and something really pissed
me off..but nvm.
i slept at the sofa from 3-7.30pm.
it's like so long, i think it's because i am too tireddd.
when i wake up, i was having fever already
and is not feeling quite okay.

i didn't eat dinner.
i am angry.
i am angry with my mother and borther.

my mother scolds me for(want to quarrel with kor kor)
she thinks i want to pick a fight.
my brother scolds me for using the computer,
although today i am suposed to use.
unreasonable right?

my brother says: yesterday when i tuition, why you don't
use leh?
i was like the teacher today then say one,
what you want me to do?
what's your problem?
so i let him use for however long he wants and now
i am using..he is feeling guilty i think.
i told my mother and she says don't bother her.

i am seriously very very very angry.
can't he be more unreasonable?
my mother is like damn fuck lah!
i always have to be one the one giving in,
(give and take)
everything is running through my brains now.

i have tried my best to endure.
i just can't take it any longer.
it's hard. it's always like that.
i have given in, and i suffered.
my mother always wants me to give in!
she has practically not spared a
thought for me.

IS NOT I DON'T WANT TO LET
GO OF THE PAIN, BUT THE
FUCKING FEELING JUST COMES
TO ME EVERYTIME!

IF YOU WANT TO BE BIASED,
SO BE IT. THIS IS MY FATE.
THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.

i am going/have endure all this for the whole
of my life.
this my life, my fate.

no one can fell the hurt in my heart.
i am too greedy to want more love from them.
i am just not strong to endure this.

IF THINGS ARE GOING TO END UP LIKE
THIS, SO BE IT.
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF IT!
IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT!

I like me with you.

8:37 PM

26th of may
i am too lazy to reply from tagboard.
SUEN-hahah(:
HAZEL-hahah okay(: anyways thanks.
DENISE-hello(: yeah. i am feeling better(:

I like me with you.

8:55 PM

26th of may
aiyo, yesterday got high fever.
now my mother say rest more or
later fever come back agian.
i am so sick.
cough, sorethroat, asthma, flu
all this are so stupid man.

i like walk stairs need to walk quite slow.
cause if walk too fast my asthma will come back):
oh god..wonder if there is tuition later.
I DON'T WANTTT!
sick still need to go tuition!!

I like me with you.

12:31 PM

25th of may
oh my god!
i am having fever!
hahah. chill..it's no big deal.

i was looking at hazel's blog for the pic that
we took yesterday(:
hahah.

I like me with you.

6:18 PM

24th of may
yeah! today rocks, although i was emo
this morning, jane knows why(:
i am going to concert with hazel later!
now..slack lor.

i want to let you know that i am willing
to let go.

I like me with you.

1:53 PM

23rd of may
just now had lunch-time concert,
the conductor said that it was well done(:
hahah. and there is party at hazel's house,
it was fun and crazy.
there are too many pictures. i am too lazy to post.

i am still coughing, it got more worst.
i am feeling so down.
oh ya, and my pet passed away today morning.
my parents went ot bury it now.
when i saw that, my eyes are wattery, and
tears dripped down.
been with my family for like so long.

haiyo, got scolded again!
sick and tired.
but i will bear with it!
CHILL! CHILL! CHILL!

hahah. i think i am crazy today(:
fun fun fun!!
tomorrow going concert with hazel.
i am getting excited. i am so high!
hahah. not high in the sky..-.-

yeah!
LAIMIN LOVES EVERYONE!
SHE IS HAPPY!
i rather live my life meaningfully than think
about those kind of sad things.
hahah. yeah.

i have sought things out.
nomatter what happens, god will
always be there for me.
god loves me unconditionally.
i love god tooo!

yeah, i will live my life happy from today
onwards nomatter what happens.
i am contented.

i know that journey in the future will be tough.
there will be obsticles, i have to overcome.
so JIA YOU! JIA YOU! JIA YOU!

I like me with you.

10:34 PM

22th of may
oh my gosh.
i like going to be sick or already is sick.
flu, sore-throat, cough.
all so suck.

but today was quite okay(:
filing science worksheet was definitely fun!
hahah. it was very fun(:
out of school with su en(:
then saw my brother..that actually didn't want
to acknowledge me. you are baddie!
of course i also saw lawrence and issac.

who do i love now?
daddy1? daddy2?
i seriously don't know.

there is lunch time concert tomorrow,
(memorising now)

scoldings from my mother..that's like so usual.
wanted her to buy something for me that is like
not even ten bucks.
my parents bought him a shaver that was like fifty
bucks?
aiya. as expected, this kind of thing is too common.

of course, my mother was disappointed in my results.
although i improved some but still, scoldings.
is like they told me last week, they feel disgraced of me,
cause of my result, can't move on to grade six for piano,
and stuff.
that's really hurtful to hear.
she might have treat it as a joke,
but actually have hurt me.

can she stop being so biased, unreasonable?
i really can't stand her nonsense anymore.
if i rebel very bad on her, i would be treated with cane.
she didn't know the stress in me, everything.
she still adds on to it.

although i feel the hurt from my family,
but we are afterall a family.
i hope it doesn't break.

I like me with you.

8:38 PM

20th of may
HAPPY B'DAE TO
IRIS & PJ!

just had choir.
it was quite suck duh.
yvonne is sick, sally is tired, everybody suck today!
and mrs teo back today(: yeah!
mr tan gone..yeah!
watch VCD the whole lesson except for science.
hahah. it was quite fun!

I HATE YOU! ):
BOOHOOHOO!
HAHAH! YOU DON'T KNOW THAT I HATE YOU HOR..

I like me with you.

9:31 PM

18th of may
just finish my piano lesson.
today lesson was okay. i understood.
i am so happy(:

i am home alone like it's so usual.
why should i go out with them when i know that
the same thing will happen to me over and over again.
i rather i stay at home. rather then suffer huh.

oh gosh. i love janee blog's song. it's nice(:
hahah. i slept so late last night. i am sleepy!
later got hana-kimi to watch!
yeah. i love that show.

tomorrow there is no school. bored):
what should i do..?
hmm..i will decide later. hahah.
today is a fun day. i hope the fun will last forever for me.

oh gosh. stop staring at me in class.
i am getting irritated. you always seat the place where
you can look at me directly.
irritated. -.-

I MISS LARB!
i want want to eat but school doesn't sell anymore leh.
how huh? don't eat lor..-.- hahah. i think i am crazy.
dinner for me tonight? no thanks. i don't feel like eating.

i am not sure if my family knows that i am avoiding to
go for any family gathering or like every weekends where
they go out together. i am doing this to avoid quarrels,
all those stuff. hope they understand(:
well..this is the best solution(: hope it works(:

got to buy miss ng's goodbye gift soon.
tomorrow bah. since i am free. anybody want to come?
hahah. just random asking cause got nothing to do(:

i am happy today.
i would be contented if everyday was like that(:

I like me with you.

1:55 PM

my CA results:
chinese-60.4
maths-48.2
english-69.6
science-45.5
history-46.5
art-69
home econ-70.8
overall percentage-58.6

its all scolding and scolding from my parents.
they say i never pay attention in class,
never study hard.
its all my fault practically.
can't they spare a thought for me?
they think i don't have enough stress?
i thought there would be some encouragements.

why? is it a disgrace to you?
you think i am happy?
at least i improved right? nvm.
your will never understand me at all.
i really had enough of your scoldings.
give me a break.

do your know how irritating it was to have your
nagging the whole day?
brother using computer on weekdays.
why can't i? i use on weekdays i will get scolded.
brother use nothing happen.
plates all those stuff, i do. brother don't need to do.
he use computer, i still doing those stuff.

can i have some rest? my arms and legs are like aching.
doing,doing,and doing. i feel so fuck up lah.
i am not being defiance or what, but i want to yell your
that what you have done, really hurt me a lot.
you always give unknowingly stress.
your don't even know!

the blame is always on me.

I like me with you.

9:55 AM

14th of may
what a disappointment huh?
failed history, but at least i improved from last year.
was crying like for long??
miss ng is a really greta teacher.
but she is leaving next week..how sad can it be?
more to be posted at home later if it does not rain(:

I like me with you.

10:37 AM

stop it. just stop.
i really had enough of your scoldings, lecturing.
i really tried my best in the exams.
i study, you give stupid comments.
the paper is really very hard.
if you think it is so simple, why don't you try it?

you don't understand me.
you are always biased to my brother.
and you don't notice about me..do you know
i feel sad and left out. NO, YOU DON'T!

you are always pushing the blame on me everytime.
can you just stop. i feel irritated.
today i really very bad mood, do you have to make
me more worse?
i have had enough of your nonsense.
you words are real hurting,actually made me cry.
nvm. i am always in the wrong,you are always right.

i just wanted to tell me that i have tried my best.
although the results are not high,
i am still proud of myself cause i tried my very best.

I like me with you.

5:39 PM

12th of may
morning start off with p.e.
it was fun man. we were given the
pedometre. oh gosh, how i wish the fun
will never stop.

then got home econ.
was really pissed by mrs ruth wong, and some
of my classmates. nvm.
then was maths...it was so sucks.
i got 32/60. it was such a dissapointment for me.
from A1 drop to C6. how hurtful?
and there was scoldings or should i say its a lecture.
he say as if i didn't study.

he did not see the hard work i put in.
it's just that...
and after he teach me, my class test didn't pass a single one.
all failed. he is a bad teacher? i am a bad student?
some of my classmates are studying real hard.
but they still fail, they should be praised because
they tried their best.
mr tan don't undertstand how we feels.

home now.
as expected, scoldings from my mother.
i really tried my best for maths..is just that the paper is hard.
cant' she understand?
it thought that i should have some encouragements,
praising, for the hard work,effort that i put in.
i really tried my best, i really did. can you believe me?

and one more thing.
i think i am going to like you soon.
i used to hate you in the past for making me,
but now, it seems that my hatred for you is gone.

today sucks.
tomorrow getting back three papers.
i am scared. and there is choir tomorrow.
i really don't feel like going.
i am afraid that i wil let off my temper at someone.
if i will tomorrow, i will tell you sorry first.

how i wish he will be there encouraging me...

I like me with you.

4:56 PM

i shall continue the post then since i got
nothing to do.
okay, i really feel like vomiting now.
i think its because i didn't eat dinner.

why is everyone so biased?
everything. i just feel so hurt.
the moment where they praise one person,
and leave the other one alone.
that's how i felt.
i know..i not better than him in anyway.
his studies..knowledge, authority. everything.
i am just inferior to him in everything.
but do you have to make it so obvious?
go, go on. cause i know that he always mean
more to you in your heart.
i am just so disappointed in you.

I like me with you.

10:38 PM

heard something that just really hurt

my heart. i almost cried.

my mother told me not to be sad,

cause she say she don't dote you, i dote you!

you just don't understand how i feel.

cause you don't go through all this.

there is nothing that i can do.

i just feel like crying.

maybe i just don't meant to be in this family.

in this world. you just treat me so differently.

you treat me as if you don't care about me.

you know what? if you don't care.

then why should i even care about it.

I like me with you.

7:26 PM

10th of may
went out with doreen just now,and
went to meet bu yao gen ni shuo to pass
her present(:
it was a shirt. i hope she like it(:
hahah. just now was crazy man.
it was enjoyable..really had a lot of fun..
laughing, talking, all those stuff.
and she treat me bubbletea. thanks doreen(:

and i was scolded by my mother.
she told me i am lazy..because i used the
computer instead of wipign my piano.
i am like so tired, can't i rest first?
i told you to sell the piano and buy a plastic one,
so no need to buy. but you insist of no.
what's your problem?
its my fault lah. happy?

doreen doesn't seems well.
she says she feel like vomiting..i wonder how
is she now leh.

I like me with you.

5:34 PM

9th of may
yeah! finished CA.
hip hip hooray.

why are you so sad?
because of me? i bet so..
cause i was the one that left you alone.
i am sorry. is there anything i can do.
as i post previously on my blog that
i am a jinx..a troublemaker..
you should believe it now right?

well..it seems that it's my fault again.
its always my fault. there is nothing i can do.
i just hate the feeling of being accused.
that feeling is terrible.
i just hate myself for living in this world.

I like me with you.

11:49 AM

8th of may
yeah. left with one literature paper then can relax.
tmr is going to be fun!
hahah. going to buy 8bu yao gen ni shuo* de present.
going to give her a surprise(: be prepared.
anyway, i am going to get very low marks for maths.
i know it. i don't know why.
i don't want to fail..that's not the results i want!

well..thinking, everything that happened, it looks like
its all my fault practically, and i am like pushing the
blame to them everytime. what's wrong with me?
i am like the troulbe maker,the jinx.
i just hate myself sometimes.
i hate the feeling of being accused. it feels so bad.
wanted to explain..but who will listen to me?

you will graguate this year.
time pass so fast, i am going to cry.
i am afraid i would. i pray not.

this year seems better.
that's what i think.
scolding a secondary four last year huh?
the sufferings i went through..nobody can
understand how i feel.
i was insulted, scolded, everything.
i cry like so manytimes last year.
i am just not strong enough to endure all this.

I like me with you.

2:31 PM

must study hard for CA.
was really tired this few days.
i am going to buy lots of lollipop
for lots of people soon after CA.

what is the fucking problem with you?
just go away lah.
its none of our business anyway.

i am scared.
yesterday night studying was like so suck!
studying half way and heard some funny noises.
i should say that its scary noises.
its freaking me out!
so i studied half way only.

and i owe a lot of people present.
hazel, stiie and jill.
sorry.
i will buy them soon(:

okay.
there is a eight legged creature at the curtains now.
its like so near me can.
scared scared wor.
its like so big.
shew shew! go away!
hahah got to go.
burbye.
abd bye eight legged creature!

I like me with you.

10:55 AM