Me&you(:

today i went to dental to have me teeth extracted.
it was quite painful, especially the injection part.
the dentist and the 2 nurse was very patient with me.
the dentist waited for me to be ready for injection.
it's so pain till i cried.
the dentist said i was a brave girl(:
and he said lots of praising words, hear already so shuang.
today had 2 teeth extracted.

afterthat, i ate lunch with the 2 special friends.
they ate spicy noodle and i ate bland one.
tuition today is nice(:

now my teeth really painful.
i didn't eat the medicine because don't eat pills, i eat liquid
medicine. it would be so embarassing to ask for liquid medicine,
cause i am 14 already, still don't dare to eat pills. ):

putting braces on 10th january. :D

I like me with you.

5:21 PM

i got to be strong.
i will not cry anymore.
jia yous(:

I like me with you.

6:10 PM

a thank you to hazel(:
she helped me to do the template thing.
she always helped me to change blogskin, tagboard.
thank you nut!

for the holiday assignments, i have completed
-science
-maths
-english
chinese and geography i shall do it tonight.

just now when i went for piano lesson,
my teacher told me something, and really made me teared.
she said if i passed my grade 5 theory,
i can skip grade6 and straight away go to grade7.
she said i got the standard of grade 7.
i was really very happy to hear that.
she talking to me, like yay! hip hip hooray!
me, me, it's really me(: *teared*
i really hope that i can pass grade 5 theory next year.
jia yous(:

and there is something i want to post about before i end my post.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANE(:
a very happy birthday to you. i owe you a present.
happy sweet 14th(:

I like me with you.

4:51 PM

gosh, i forgot to borrow the chinese book from library.
i haven't completed a lot lot of assignments, got to do them soon.
you are right, i am retarded and stupid classmate like you said.
i didn't even blame you can.
all you said is ''go and review your blog''.
i also never blame you with all my mood swing thoughts.
even if i did. i am sorry. i bet you are still angry.

tonight i am not going to sleep.
i am going to complete holiday assignments.

I like me with you.

6:44 PM

ytd had bbq at kennneth's house.
something happened, and it made me really sad about it,
worse still, made me teared.
after a while, my mood was back.
a really thank you to you guys ytd for comforting me.
it's not his fault for telling me, so you don't have to be sorry.___
i have faith and trust in you, and believe that you wouldn't tell
anyone about it.

maybe be (she) betrayed me or (he) go around telling people who i like.
i know he hated me very much. nomatter it is interclass for vertical
challenge, road relay, skipping and during the practise,
he always blamed me. and it's always the team members fault, not his.
i's like, come on. we are a class, we should be united and not blaming
another person right?

he must be glad that i cried ytd.
congragulations, you have attained your goal.
nomatter who betrayed me,
nomatter who told ________ about my blog,
i don't care anymore,
cause i really had enough of your nonsense.
the thing that i worry most, happened.
my first crush was known to the person, now also is going to be known.
there is only one conclusion, i was a fool to trust them.
even if he knows that i like him now, so be it.

you want to tell the whole class about my blog, go on, i will not stop you.
even if you want to tell the whole world, i also not going to care.

are you shamed of yourself, i guess not.
a person like you will never know the meaning of hurt.

i am your classmate, i just didn't expect you to be so mean to me.

I like me with you.

12:08 PM

doreen: you are linked(:
simin: hey :D
denise: i will, and you are linked. :P
PUI YEE: i hope so.
hazel: don't cry, cause if you do, i will cry even more.
laura: i will, thanks(:
Jane: i am not starving myself. just no appetite. don't worry(:
trishaa: hey hey!
rachel: ya thanks, i believe i will find friends.
Suen: suensuensuen daughter hello(:
Becky: yea, i saw you. sorry couldn't send you the songs ytd.
hazel: i am back tooo(:

thank you people for encouraging me and comforting me.
don't worry, i am fine(:
and those going for BBQ later, see you.
11 more days and it will be school day, how time flies.
thanks yvonne for buying my lunch ytd(:
ytd performance was great, i did enjoy myself as i was singing.

i will post again soon.
byebye, and take care people.

I like me with you.

1:38 PM

i came back from japan yesterday midnight and i slept at 3.30.
the tour was alright i guess.

i keep telling myself to stop thinking about it.
mummy, you don't have to scold me stupid right?
you everytime scold me, even if i never did wrong,
i also appologised. and you told dad and brother about it.
it really hurt me.

during the tour, you told one of the parent that brother was much more
sensible than me. and dad spoiled me.
what a lie you said to not let your son lose face.
i know myself that i did my part as a daughter,
even if brother bully me..i kept quiet and pretend nothing happen.

yesterday he spilled the sauce on the table,
and brother blamed me for spilling.
fine, i took the blame, but still i had to clear the mess.
mummy, i don't know why you are treating me like that.
isit because my piano grades made you lose face?
isit because i am not a guy?
isit because brother studies grade is better than mine?
i guess so.

nomatter what i do, i can't satisfact you right?
it's forever like that. nothing is going to change.
it's forever my fault.
i am going to tolerate.

everytime you scold me, it really hurt me.
you will never know the pain i am going through.
everytime when brother bullies me, when mummy and dad scold me,
there is no one i can go to.
no one to lean on the shoulder's and cry out loud.
i can only pray to god.

oh lord, help me.

I like me with you.

7:18 PM