Me&you(:

this few days, i 've been in a really bad mood.
i still rmb last tuesday(21/7)(7.52pm) when i received a call from my grandma's neighbour: can you pls rush over now, ah-ma fainted and she is uncounscious!
my mother and i quickly rushed to my grandma's house. when we were in the taxi, i told the uncle to drive faster. i called my father, two aunts, brother and grandfather. i still rmb my mother and me crying on the taxi, praying everything will be alright.
at that time, my father was overseas and my brother was still in sp. my mother and i just felt so helpless and insecure without them.

when i reached there, i quickly banged through the door and went into the room to see my graandma. she was still uncounscious, and my mother cried even more because she thought that my grandma couldn't make it. i took out my phone and called 995. it's the first time i called a ambulance. because i panic, i gave the wrong address, luckily the ambulance people know.

as i waited for ambulance to arrive, i was shivering, with tears dripping from my face. i was worried that smthing bad might happen. when they came, they carried her and they gave me instructions of what to do and i followed.

do you know how it felt like seeing your loved ones lying in the hospital with needles on them? it was horrible. i bet it really hurts. at that time, i really wished that i was the one that would be lying in the hospital instead.

two days ago, my grandma was discharged. and i was realy relieved. thank lord for watching over her.
now, today morning my bro had fever 40.0 and he had a 1 week mc. it's really serious this time, cause he look really pale, he doesn't play com games now, he gets tired easily.

grandma discharged and now my brother sick. what is this?!
gosh, wish that everything will be fine.
dear lord, pls watch over both of them.

after this, i learnt to cherish my loved ones. esp my grandma. although she is bias to my bro, but yea, she's still my grandma. i still love her a lot.
grandma<3

you kwow what??
after all this had happened, i really don't have the time and mood to care about all this wishy and washy stuffs.
it's just...tiring me out.

god will give me the strength to carry on.

I like me with you.

9:38 PM

wow, i just realised how long i have been neglecting my blog.anyway, today got interclass frisbee. my class got in second. great job guys(:

all i do, is to ask the question why to myself.
why? i am really sorry, ahem.
sorry for making you feel uncomfortable in class, even avoid me,really sorry about it. i guess it's because i "stalk" you too much or what.

everytime i see you, it just reminds me of the past, and that's what i really hate. the more i want to avoid your, the more i see both of your. it will only makes me hate you even more. i swear everytime i see your, i just can't control myself, but cry. why? why is this happening to me? this was not the life i wanted..

I like me with you.

9:22 PM

not really in a good mood now.
thinking about what's been happening this week.
it practically suck.
and people asking why i so moody?
really sorry guys, i really can't help it.

i dont' know how to face you.

I like me with you.

11:57 PM