everytime i see you, i can't control myself. i have the feeling of running away.
yes, seeing you with her makes me feel uneasy. but i think it's time for me to let go. i really cannot take it anymore. it really irritates me.. i feel akward looking at you.
you don't understand. well, i don't expect you to understand me. i just hope you will be happy. that's all i want. i don't expect much.
of course, it hurts in my heart. i will let time heal the pain. i hope my friends don't give those kind of reactions like.. eh..daddy 1, daddy 2.
cause i hate it. they are not anymore, never going to.
I like me with you.
9:45 PM
today was a quite nice day indeed. after school went to computer lab to do LA project. then went to eat then study with hazel, ying ying and tashka. test coming soon. need to study[:
i suddenly thought of my cousin during chinese class. i almost cried. i thought of the car accident, everything. it's so saddening. like what hazel said, if i witnessed the accident, i wouldn't talk.
oh gosh, i can't even remember how he look like. but then..i miss him. when he passed away..i was like only primary one. okay..tears dripping down on my face.
okay, i shouldn't think about it anymore.
I like me with you.
9:22 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
today was quite alright..just a bit bored. had performance in the morning. was okay i think.
hahah. then went home to change and then met doreen, jia ning and dahlia for lunch. actually planned to play basketball. but then..don't have the ball. so we went arcade instead.
home now. brother watching show with his friends later, so i am using the computer now(:
homework to do later(: okay..burbye(:
I like me with you.
3:30 PM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
hazel, i am updating(: i am starting to blog(: hahah. i was quite happy. cause i did the tests by myself. first time get so high for goegraphy and science.
i didn't expect myself to get 24/30 for science. thinking about it, i somehow feel like crying. too touched by my efforts(: and geography, i actually get 8/10. hahah. unexpected also. cause the day before, i got cramps and studied a bit only.
hahah. maths test coming soon. i am confident that i will get A1. i will work hard for it(:
i made a deal with mugging partner. if any of us get A for science, then the other person will treat bbt. this time round, is we both treating each other(:
there is performance tmr. sherilyn is conducting(: sherilyn, jia you(:
yesterday i guess i got gastric bah. during singing, i wasn't feeling quite well. stomache was like...and feel like vomiting. now, i understands how hazel feels when this happens to her.
must eat healthy and grow happily. no stress, only happiness(: i won't think i am fat, wanting to lose weight. i won't think about unhappy stuffs. i am happy(:
hahah. today is a great day. i believe tmr will be even better(:
if you ask me who i like, daddy 1 or daddy 2. my answer will be: it doesn't matter now. cause i know it's impossible, when one is attached, and the other one is like so FAR from me. i love nobody.
I like me with you.
6:55 PM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
i am freaking bored.. what to do?? can't go out. yesterday's performance is great. it's like nice can. i was the first to walk in and the last to walk out. i was freaking scared.
i am quite upset now. thinking of what she said. i was really quite disappointed.
i trusted her so much, yet she still betrayed me. have i done wrong to her?? i thought that she was a nice person. in the end..it turned out to be like that. just what's her fucking problem?
i just hate the feeling of being betrayed. it's terrible. it's freaky. it's saddening.
i can't blame her for being like that. it's not her fault actually. it's actually.. my fault for trusting her. my fault for knowing her. it's all my fault.
why are tears dripping down my face now?
i don't know why it turned out to be like that. maybe she will feel good hurting me i guess. problems, problems, problems. i have been through this so many times already, i will make it through also this time.
laimin, you will make it through.
I like me with you.
6:26 PM
Thursday, July 3, 2008
thanks to hazel i can blog now(: yeahs. just now came back from school at second floor locker. was playing all while.
saw something, as expected. they was together. i was kind of disappointed.
seowlaimin. you must accept the fact that they are together. let go, there is no use clinging on those things. instead..you should give them your blessings. i told myself not to love him anymore. but it hurts to see them together. it's bitter i know.
nevermind. sooner or later, i am forget about him. i believe that as time passes, the hurt in me will all gone. all gone...all gone. it's going to be over soon.
I like me with you.
7:17 PM
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
BOO, HAZEL HERE :)
Done, you can post now. Hehheh && please post. Bleh. :P You are at my house now with the MAMA JANE clique. Hehheh. & we are enjoying ourselves very much.