27th of may
today was fun(:
more fun!
hahah. (REWIND)
morning went to meet hazel,doreen
and yvonne at mac before go choir.
then after choir went to funeral wake.
that is sad man.
went to eat at yoshi and amazingly,
i found JENSON!
omg! you JJ..grown untill so tall,
last time i was taller than you,
now you taller than me.
okay, anyway take cares bah(:
next to NTUC!
yea to buy prize..and something really pissed
me off..but nvm.
i slept at the sofa from 3-7.30pm.
it's like so long, i think it's because i am too tireddd.
when i wake up, i was having fever already
and is not feeling quite okay.
i didn't eat dinner.
i am angry.
i am angry with my mother and borther.
my mother scolds me for(want to quarrel with kor kor)
she thinks i want to pick a fight.
my brother scolds me for using the computer,
although today i am suposed to use.
unreasonable right?
my brother says: yesterday when i tuition, why you don't
use leh?
i was like the teacher today then say one,
what you want me to do?
what's your problem?
so i let him use for however long he wants and now
i am using..he is feeling guilty i think.
i told my mother and she says don't bother her.
i am seriously very very very angry.
can't he be more unreasonable?
my mother is like damn fuck lah!
i always have to be one the one giving in,
(give and take)
everything is running through my brains now.
i have tried my best to endure.
i just can't take it any longer.
it's hard. it's always like that.
i have given in, and i suffered.
my mother always wants me to give in!
she has practically not spared a
thought for me.
IS NOT I DON'T WANT TO LET
GO OF THE PAIN, BUT THE
FUCKING FEELING JUST COMES
TO ME EVERYTIME!
IF YOU WANT TO BE BIASED,
SO BE IT. THIS IS MY FATE.
THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.
i am going/have endure all this for the whole
of my life.
this my life, my fate.
no one can fell the hurt in my heart.
i am too greedy to want more love from them.
i am just not strong to endure this.
IF THINGS ARE GOING TO END UP LIKE
THIS, SO BE IT.
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF IT!
IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT!
I like me with you.
8:37 PM