my mummy damn random,
suddenly see the choir schedule on the table then scold me again.
you think i want to go home so late isit?
do i like have a choice to chose?
i told you that i wanted me table to be in my room,
so when your watch tv and stuff, i can concentrate,
then you go say what superstitious things...as usual.
it's bull shit.
brother, i know you look down on me because i take combined science.
but do you have to emphazise on the word combined?
is taking combined science shamfeful?
you are just too full of yourself.
you keep saying that i will fail every subject.
i am already trying very hard to cope
with choir, school work, studytime,piano.
do you know that i am freaking stressed up now?
mummy, i said i didn't want to have chinese tuition.
the reason is not because i am lazy,
it's because i need to find time to study.
do i have time to study? no.
do i have enough time to sleep? no.
do i have time to play piano? no.
do i have time to rest? no.
no no no no! not at all!
i am really very disappointed with you.
i am really very stressed up.
you don't even understand me,
then how the fuck can we communicate?
everytime we talk, we quarrel.
you don't understand how i feel, you don't understand me.
you only care about your beloved son.
when it comes to credit, it always belong to him,
te credit, praise, care and concern never belongs to me.
when it comes to fault, it always my fault.
why? why? why? why isit me and not him.
why?
i am not angry that i am always blamed,
i am not angry that you are bais to brother,
but just dissapointed that you would treat me like that.
brother's birthday is forever so 'celebrated'
my birthday..do they even rmb??
dahlia, a thank you for being my listening ear everytime.
i shouldn't even have talk to him...
i am just creating one more trouble for myself, and letting myself
get hurt again.
why? why can't i just shut my mouth and ignore him?
sooner or later, history is going to repeat itself.
sooner or later, i will cry again.
i can only watch things happen infront of me,
there is nothing i can do. it was meant to be.
i just feel so useless.
I like me with you.
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